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Default – Self reflection etc.

Online Overload

Last week when I had trouble sleeping I spent a fair amount of time surfing the internet for whatever I could find. This eventually lead me to Drist’s myspace page where I fully intended on sending them a ‘myspace message’ telling them they had to put some of their songs on RockBand ASAP.

Back up just a bit – for those of you who do not know me, I despise myspace.  I’ve always hated it.  HATED it.  Almost unexplainably.  I can’t even really put my finger on why – but part of it is people that put 8 million pictures/videos/songs on their ‘space’ and crash my dual core 2GB RAM computer.

Anyway – In order to send Drist a message, I would have to take the ultimate plunge of debauchery and create my own ‘space’.  After some reluctance, I did the unthinkable  Vanberge, the eternal hater and shunner of myspace fire death created a myspace account.  I then added Vanbergs as a friend and sent one of my favorite bands in the world a myspace message pleading them to put songs out for RockBand downloadable content.

That was just the beginning…

In the last 4 days I have signed up for and begun using a plethora of online services.  This includes (see sidebar) Digg, Twitter, Last.fm, LinkedIn, and of course… Myspace.

Until now, I’ve really sort of avoided the ‘online community’ side of the internet.  I’ve stuck to things I know and really haven’t tried anything new – primarily I’m an emailer and then I maintain this website – and that’s been it.  And actually, it’s too bad I’ve waited so long to start exploring the further reaches of the internet.  I’ve found myself enjoying embracing these communities and will no doubt continue to do so (well, I may not keep my ‘space’).  But things like last.fm, twitter, and linkedin will probably stay part of my daily web activity for some time to come.

With the expansion into the online world, I began also looking for ways to consolidate my online activity into a more efficient means.  Typing URL after URL into the address bar is a very inefficient means of getting things done online.  Google reader has already helped me with this, but I felt there was more room for improvement.  In the end, I added and reorganized bookmarks into folders that I can easily ‘open all in tabs’.  I then used FoxMarks to continuously sync my bookmarks between all of my firefox browsers (since Google browser sync has been discontinued) – and then finally I downloaded Opera mini, a much improved web browser for my Blackberry 8830 which installs in seconds and absolutely dwarfs the default RIM browser.

Thanks to everyone who no doubt accepted the several invite/friend requests for these various online accounts I’ve finally decided to start using.

Big Sky Country

This week was a long week.  It’s always hard to come back after a vacation; especially when you’ve been off work for 2 solid weeks, taken a road trip to Plentywood Montana, and had an awesome holiday weekend.

It’s been some time since I’ve been on a road trip, so I had been looking forward to our trip to Montana for quite some time.  I couldn’t wait to leave my blackberry at home and get 1,200 miles away.

The drive out there was surprisingly fast.  Carpooling with the inlaws, we took shifts driving and plowed straight through, stopping only for gas and food.  The drive out took approximatly 27 hours and was 1,280 miles.  I passed my free time by reading Angels and demons, watching a few different movies on my laptop (no country for old men is very deserving of the Oscar for Best Picture.), chewing sunflower seeds, and aweing at the open vastness of the North Dakota and Montana countrysides.

I had an initial picture of our trip being very ‘frontier-like’.  I envisioned sitting around campfires, having some beer, and roughing it a bit.  But it was actually the opposite.  Plentywood has about 1800 residents, several restaurants, an ACE hardware, and a fully loaded sporting goods store.  There isn’t any fast food or Walmarts within a 2 hours drive – but Plentywood holds its own in Northeast Montana.

Most of the time was spent with family that we haven’t seen in a long time.  But I did get a chance to learn alot more about my wife’s side of the family, and gain an appreciation for the western atmosphere.  I felt refreshed and really enjoyed our time.

All in all – I took alot of pictures, bought a genuine cowboy hat, shot at gophers, loved Moose Drool, gazed at the clearest night sky I’ve ever seen, visited the Mall of America, gained 11 pounds, and had an amazing time.

Vanbergs and flo, thank you again for watching our home and pets.

Dissolve

I have said and written before that I believe music to be the most powerful, influential, and all affecting human art.  For me, looking at pictures or reading printed words pales in comparison to the effect that music can have on my entire soul.

Any feeling or emotion that I can or will experience has been emphasized, amplified, and fully experienced with the assistance of music.  Likewise – great music is capable of actually producing these feelings and emotions.  It’s really almost impossible for me to accurately articulate into words.

With that said, there are few and rare cases where a ‘song’ transcends the bounds of my mortality.  It becomes more than a catchy rhythm, more than a consistent beat, more than meaningful harmony, more than lyrics, more than vocals, and more than words can describe.  The only way i can find to describe this situation is that the artists do not simply play their instruments, write their lyrics, or sing their songs.  Rather, they wield pure and unbridled emotion via their instrument of choice; harnessing and culminating the entire universe’s energy into one cataclysmic event. (or, ‘song’).

One such artist is “Drist”.  One such song is “Dissolve”.

I am fairly convinced that this song my most favorite song that I have ever heard.  The combination of music, vocals, and lyrics pull my emotions from sorrow and empathy, through hope and inspiration, and finish at absolute contentment.   I find this nearly impossible because the lyrics are almost completely objective – but nevertheless, it is an amazing experience.

Different forms of music have different effects on different people.  This particular music has a profound effect on me.  And I thank the band Drist for the experience.

Listen to the song
Drist on MySpace

The lyrics:
Oceans arrived, let go
So sure, how could my confidence be wrong
I sacrifice, and hold the pain
Of each and everyday alone

All I know, is all I loved
All long forgiven
All I knew, are all my wrongs
I’ve long forgotten

Watch as the tide dissolves
So sure, that the lines I drew
Were all gone
I sacrifice and hold onto
The chance that I will soon dissolve

Break all your ties
Face the one
Held inside.
Take your breath
Keep your head
Held back while
I show you. See them
Watch it go

Gary Fisher Wingra

Gary Fisher WingraFor the last two to three weeks, I have been stuck on the notion that I MUST own a bicycle.  I haven’t had a bike since I was probably 13 or 14, and I figure riding a bike is about 500 times more enjoyable than running.  I’ve been shopping around with the thought that I wanted a “roadish” bike that I could ride back and forth to work (4.1 miles) comfortably, but that could also hit a light path without dumping me.  I definitely didn’t want a full on road bike with the underhook type handle bars.  Doing a fair amount of research put me onto a class of bike called a “commuter” or “urban” depending on which brand you’re looking at.

I started looking at Trek, really because that’s the only bicycle brand that I’ve ever known to be top notch.  So, I spent alot of time shopping Trek bikes online and reading reviews about their different models.  In the end, I was certain that I would be purchasing a Trek SU 2.0 just from reading online about it.

Then i started to call around bike shops and ask some preliminary questions – what size frame do I need?  Is a Trek SU 2.0 going to do what I want it to?  What accessories are must haves?  etc.  From there, the next step was going into a bike shop and checking out the goods first hand.  And I was completely amazed that after one trip to a bike shop, some discussion with the biker guru employees, and a couple test rides – I had put a bike on layaway.  Not a SU 2.0.  Not even a Trek.  Rather, a brand and model I hadn’t even previously heard of: The Gary Fisher Wingra.

I picked up the bike last friday, and in the first 4 days of ownership I rode it 20 miles.  I rode it 8 miles home from the bike shop right after picking it up.  I road it to work a couple days this week (thank god our office has a shower.) and I rode around our neighborhood a few times just getting a feel for it.

The bike wasn’t too bad really pricewise – but I bought a speedo/odometer, a helmet, a lock, some bar end grips, a water bottle holder, a rack/pack carrier, and a little carry bag that attaches under the seat.  After all was said and done, we had to spend a little more than I liked – but I figured out that each day I ride my bike to work will save me about 2 bucks in gas – and I only live 4.1 miles from home.  Not to mention, riding my bike to work is a pretty good way for me to get some much needed exercise.

All in all – W00t Gary Fisher’s wingra.  Check out some pics.

Overteched

This week has been nothing short of an overload on my sensory nervous system from a technical standpoint.

The week started with a drive to Detroit, where I proceeded to reside for the remainder of the workweek. I was attending a VMware training course since my company is going to invest fairly heavily in virtualization this year. The class was an ‘advanced’ course with accelerated curriculum. Long story short, I had VMware jammed at me from 8a.m.-6p.m. 5 days straight. Normally a structure like this would be result in a distinct lack of sanity – however, with VMware the class was actually very enjoyable and interesting for me. The entire concept of virtualizing operating systems is fascinating to me, and it really is changing (or, has already changed) the entire IT industry.

In a sense, this course almost motivated me. The very second I got home on Friday evening I started to mess around with my own home network. Here I sit on Saturday evening with an upgraded Destkop computer (Ubuntu 8.04), a new Ubuntu 8.04 server running on a spare 2 ghz workstation we have, and a fairly cool home network.

I now have all my media and documents centralized on this Ubuntu server, and I’ve published that using NFS so the files are accessible from both my laptop and my desktop computers. It’s been a learning experience for me because I’ve worked with Windows server systems for so long, but it’s been really fun for me to tinker around with Ubuntu from a server OS perspective.

I went even further and also set the server up to take over DHCP and DNS (vs my netgear router giving out IPs and resolving names), installed apache web server, added a web based management front end called eBox, installed MediaWiki, and finally added a cool little “Chat with Eric” applet that I had noticed Google published for their Google talk service. (click on the About page, it’s there too)

A little odd for me to start on a tech bender like this, especially since I was over-loaded with tech info all week long.

Either way, it’s been fun.

Up and Down

To recap the last month, there have been several ups and downs.

Down – Comcast raised their cable prices.  I am convinced that this company is simply the worst company in the entire charted universe.  No company on any world terrestrial or extra, are more of a disgrace of business operations.  They are absolutely the most abysmal service providing body that I can ever imagine dealing with.  Ef comcast in the a.

Up – I cancelled my cable service and upped my netflix subscription.  Monthly bill instantly drops nearly 50 dollars.

Down – Wife’s car wont start, goes in for work, starts but then runs poorly, goes back in for more work, has check engine light come on, back in for MORE work (nearly 3 weeks now).

Up – I screamed at the dealer after becoming more enraged than i have ever been, and the last repair was free.

Down – I have been sick most of this week.

Up – I didn’t go to work most of this week.

Down – “Bad boys” with Sean Penn.

Up – Monty Python and the Holy Grail.

Down – Tax season

Up – Tax returns

Down – Spending tax returns on car repairs and doggie debt.

Up –  17 inch HP pavillion, dual core 64 bit processor, 256 meg video card, 160 gb hd, 2 gigs ram, webcam, fingerprint scanner, dvd writer, hdmi output, vista ultimate 64.

Now, level off a bit… life